decision making

everyone has to make decisions everyday. some people think them through really carefully and some people jump into them...i am in the first category.

there are loads of suggestions on how to make decisions but for me i think the main one is 'will it make you happy in the long term?'. of course many decisions whatever you choose will eventually make you happy but some will more than others.

i am currently making what is, for me, one of the most horrible decisions i will ever have to make, and i'm just trying to work out whether option 1 or option 2 will make me happier. i think it's option 2, but i don't know and i don't think i can make an honest judgement yet. i know if i choose option 2 it will actually be way way way more difficult...but if i choose option 1 i will have the most miserable summer ever and it will take me a hell of a long time to get back on my feet and i will always wonder if i made the right decision. so..i think i'm going to pick option 2 even though it's going to be damn hard to trust again, and it's gonna take a hell of a long time for things to go back to normal...i'm not ready to give it up yet.